I'm sorry, let's make this clear.
My commitments are to myself.
Don't call me selfish because that's not what it's about.
YouTube was a DREAM of mine.
A dream, honestly.
To share my videos with the world.
But with all the hate, drama, and this "Elana" charector "BUYING" something from my etsy, posing as EmmaLee, and then publically releasing my adress, I lost sight of that.
Elana, because your probably reading this, I don't care who you are.
I don't care what you do, I don't care what made you do this.
Just know that I don't give the slightest care about you. Not in the least bit.
Sure, I made a ton of friends on here and I love them to death.
But my commitments are to myself, everyone.
I joined YouTube to make videos and share them with the world.
That is, indeed, what I have done.
Sure, everyone can go all out, keeping it a secret, ect.
But honestly, who cares.
I know I cared A TON about who knew, but really, now who's going to care?
Try and crush me all you want.
But I know where my life is taking me.
Sam puts it the best when she says,
See you in Hollywood. :)
Cause that's where I'm going, Elana.
So suck my... lollypop.
Monday, May 30, 2011
Sunday, May 15, 2011
writers block ?
Oh yes, the horrible block of the writers variety.
I want to write about so much..... but I don't know what to say.
I have a short story assignment for school.... ideas ? ^.^
Alright, so now for a few blog-related things...
First of all, I've had to remove all my face videos from my YouTube channel ^.^
I just don't like doing it anymore.
Random note, I got a chocolate shake and now my stomach hurts. Eeew.
Well, I'm going to go lay down, I feel sick.
Sorry for making you read this... :/
~Emma
I want to write about so much..... but I don't know what to say.
I have a short story assignment for school.... ideas ? ^.^
Alright, so now for a few blog-related things...
First of all, I've had to remove all my face videos from my YouTube channel ^.^
I just don't like doing it anymore.
Random note, I got a chocolate shake and now my stomach hurts. Eeew.
Well, I'm going to go lay down, I feel sick.
Sorry for making you read this... :/
~Emma
Sunday, April 10, 2011
A weird experience....
Okay, I thought I'd randomly blog so that I could waste some time before I have a shower and get ready for my day. xP I would like to point out that this experience caused me to not sleep well last night.
So yesterday, I went to the park with one of my friends. It took us a LONG time to try and actually get there, due to the fact that the trail we take isn't actually our property. My neighbor owns all this land by a park, and we walk through there to go to this park. See, this plan would usually be fool-proof because
A) He doesn't go down there much.
B) I don't think he'd mind.
C) We kind-of-ish know him.
So, that day, of ALL DAYS he decides to be down there. We can't just randomly walk through with him there, so we knelt down in the bushes and waited for him to leave to get more supplies. (he was raking leaves and such)
Once he left for a minute, we darted down into the woods and off to the park.
We hung out there for a while, and then got bored and came back. We thought by at that time he would have been gone and back at his house. But oh no, that'd be too easy. He was literally JUST coming down taking a strange lady for a tour of the property.
My friend was ahead of me, and I saw him but couldn't yell out "HE'S THERE!!!" because that may have been a bit to obvious. So, she saw him, turned back and we darted behind some trees.
Once we had made a careful plan, we saw they were coming REALLY close to where we were, and realized the "duck behind trees until we get to the shed, then when they are turned around run up and into the ditch" plan wasn't going to work. There was a trail by us, that lead deep, deep down into the woods. But since we knew all this area, we knew another way to get up by taking this way.
So, we run down there, just in time.
Once we were down there for about 20 minutes, we looked around to see if we could see the people up on the property. We couldn't, but something caught my eye in a tree. It was a HUGE owl.
And I mean HUGE. It was a ragged old animal, sitting probably 20 feet off the ground on a fat branch in a birch tree. Abby, my friend, thought it would be funny to make hooting noises at the animal.
Oh Abby, always the smart one. So, she starts "HOOT HOOT MEOW" (yes she meowed)
And then, just then.....
it turns his head in a full circle, turns it down in our direction, and stares at us for a pure 5 minutes.
It was so creepy. It's eyes are like, I don't even know. And the other thing is that it was facing away from us, and so it's head was basically backwards on it's body.
This happened about 10 times, we were amused by being scared at the sight of the owls eyes starring down at us.
Then Abby, yes oh that smart one, decides to pretend to be a mouse in the leaves.
So she gets a big stick, and begins to poke it around in the leaves like a mouse.
The owl turns around super fast, and glares down at us.
It fixed the grip it had on the old tree and glared down for a couple minutes.
I look away, hoping Abby wouldn't make any more noises.
Then I hear her scream "IT'S FLYING!"
And we collapse to the ground screaming like little babies.
The owl took off flying, yes, but not at us. I guess it got bored of looking down at two weird kids, well, being weird.
We got back up, noticed it was gone, then had a 20 minute laugh attack and nothing.
And yeah, that's my story. Wonder why I couldn't sleep?
I can't get that really, really creepy image of the owl looking down at us out of my head.
~Emma
So yesterday, I went to the park with one of my friends. It took us a LONG time to try and actually get there, due to the fact that the trail we take isn't actually our property. My neighbor owns all this land by a park, and we walk through there to go to this park. See, this plan would usually be fool-proof because
A) He doesn't go down there much.
B) I don't think he'd mind.
C) We kind-of-ish know him.
So, that day, of ALL DAYS he decides to be down there. We can't just randomly walk through with him there, so we knelt down in the bushes and waited for him to leave to get more supplies. (he was raking leaves and such)
Once he left for a minute, we darted down into the woods and off to the park.
We hung out there for a while, and then got bored and came back. We thought by at that time he would have been gone and back at his house. But oh no, that'd be too easy. He was literally JUST coming down taking a strange lady for a tour of the property.
My friend was ahead of me, and I saw him but couldn't yell out "HE'S THERE!!!" because that may have been a bit to obvious. So, she saw him, turned back and we darted behind some trees.
Once we had made a careful plan, we saw they were coming REALLY close to where we were, and realized the "duck behind trees until we get to the shed, then when they are turned around run up and into the ditch" plan wasn't going to work. There was a trail by us, that lead deep, deep down into the woods. But since we knew all this area, we knew another way to get up by taking this way.
So, we run down there, just in time.
Once we were down there for about 20 minutes, we looked around to see if we could see the people up on the property. We couldn't, but something caught my eye in a tree. It was a HUGE owl.
And I mean HUGE. It was a ragged old animal, sitting probably 20 feet off the ground on a fat branch in a birch tree. Abby, my friend, thought it would be funny to make hooting noises at the animal.
Oh Abby, always the smart one. So, she starts "HOOT HOOT MEOW" (yes she meowed)
And then, just then.....
it turns his head in a full circle, turns it down in our direction, and stares at us for a pure 5 minutes.
It was so creepy. It's eyes are like, I don't even know. And the other thing is that it was facing away from us, and so it's head was basically backwards on it's body.
This happened about 10 times, we were amused by being scared at the sight of the owls eyes starring down at us.
Then Abby, yes oh that smart one, decides to pretend to be a mouse in the leaves.
So she gets a big stick, and begins to poke it around in the leaves like a mouse.
The owl turns around super fast, and glares down at us.
It fixed the grip it had on the old tree and glared down for a couple minutes.
I look away, hoping Abby wouldn't make any more noises.
Then I hear her scream "IT'S FLYING!"
And we collapse to the ground screaming like little babies.
The owl took off flying, yes, but not at us. I guess it got bored of looking down at two weird kids, well, being weird.
We got back up, noticed it was gone, then had a 20 minute laugh attack and nothing.
And yeah, that's my story. Wonder why I couldn't sleep?
I can't get that really, really creepy image of the owl looking down at us out of my head.
~Emma
Saturday, March 19, 2011
I feel awful. Please help :(
Okay, hey girls, it's Emma.
I feel like I can be honest with all of you, so I am going to be.
A girl , who could be reading this, is blackmailing me with my YouTube.
Basically, I told her about this when we were friends because I thought I could trust her.
Then she started telling people, a lot of people.
And it's driving me crazy.
I'm fake friends with this person just so that they won't tell anybody, and I feel awful for that reason.
I don't like this person, like they aren't really my friend and I know it .
But one wrong move and they tell somebody important to me.
Even worse then all that, here.
I have to explain this to you.
So, I was at my friends house with her and her brother, who are both my really good friends.
She is a year younger and her brother is the same age as me.
They are SO nice, and especially her brother, like, we tell each other everything.
But, then he started talking to the person, let's call her Kate.
Kate is the one who knows about my youtube and tells people.
She knew I was at my friends house, let's call my friend Julie and her brother Bob. <----- LOL@BOB.
No, but seriously.
Okay, so Kate started talking to us.
But it was really Bob on the computer.
So, Bob started to joke around, legit JUST JOKING, being funny.
And she assumed it was me , for some reason. I guess another chance to blackmail me.
She said something, oh my gosh, it's just all a blur.
But something about my doll, Ivy.
And so, they were like "who the heck is Ivy?"
And then kate says, "your american girl doll silly!"
But all that Bob and Julie saw was "girl" before I could snatch away the laptop and sign out.
THEN I made up this HUGGEEE Lie the Ivy, was a girl from Germany who was here 2 years ago, who Kate thought was weird but I liked, and so she makes fun of me for it.
They believed me, obviously, because like, they are my best friends and they can trust me.
And I feel HORRIBLE.
Bob especially, he is going through a really bad time right now.
And when I tried to explain all this to him like, without telling him, he just completly told me a bunch of stuff about him, and that he really likes me (FRIEND WISE PEOPLE...) for who I am, and like I'm the best friend he has EVER HAD..... and all that kind of stuff.
Like he went on saying that nothing I do is ever going to change that, and were best friends, and he trusts me with everything.
Then, I fell asleep, after like 2 hours of talking to him, at 1 am in the morning.
Then, once I was asleep, he asked me , and I saw it this morning, "Why aren't you responding? Are you talking to Ivy?"
I had my doll Ivy, sitting right there, I was brushing her hair.
I feel like such a liar, a fake friend, and oh my gosh.
I mean, people put all this trust in me, and yet I can't even prove I'm a good friend by telling them about this.
I mean, I'm lieing to MY BEST FRIENDS about like half of my life.
(ignore how much I feel like a wanna-be hannah montana right now)
Sorry, lame jokes I know.
But if you really knew what Bob was going through, how bad it is , and what he tells me, which is EVERYTHING.
you'd feel awful too.
I'm lieing about such a big part of my life to him, but I can't, i just CAN'T TELL THEM .
Oh my gosh, please guys, what do I do ? :( :(
I feel like I can be honest with all of you, so I am going to be.
A girl , who could be reading this, is blackmailing me with my YouTube.
Basically, I told her about this when we were friends because I thought I could trust her.
Then she started telling people, a lot of people.
And it's driving me crazy.
I'm fake friends with this person just so that they won't tell anybody, and I feel awful for that reason.
I don't like this person, like they aren't really my friend and I know it .
But one wrong move and they tell somebody important to me.
Even worse then all that, here.
I have to explain this to you.
So, I was at my friends house with her and her brother, who are both my really good friends.
She is a year younger and her brother is the same age as me.
They are SO nice, and especially her brother, like, we tell each other everything.
But, then he started talking to the person, let's call her Kate.
Kate is the one who knows about my youtube and tells people.
She knew I was at my friends house, let's call my friend Julie and her brother Bob. <----- LOL@BOB.
No, but seriously.
Okay, so Kate started talking to us.
But it was really Bob on the computer.
So, Bob started to joke around, legit JUST JOKING, being funny.
And she assumed it was me , for some reason. I guess another chance to blackmail me.
She said something, oh my gosh, it's just all a blur.
But something about my doll, Ivy.
And so, they were like "who the heck is Ivy?"
And then kate says, "your american girl doll silly!"
But all that Bob and Julie saw was "girl" before I could snatch away the laptop and sign out.
THEN I made up this HUGGEEE Lie the Ivy, was a girl from Germany who was here 2 years ago, who Kate thought was weird but I liked, and so she makes fun of me for it.
They believed me, obviously, because like, they are my best friends and they can trust me.
And I feel HORRIBLE.
Bob especially, he is going through a really bad time right now.
And when I tried to explain all this to him like, without telling him, he just completly told me a bunch of stuff about him, and that he really likes me (FRIEND WISE PEOPLE...) for who I am, and like I'm the best friend he has EVER HAD..... and all that kind of stuff.
Like he went on saying that nothing I do is ever going to change that, and were best friends, and he trusts me with everything.
Then, I fell asleep, after like 2 hours of talking to him, at 1 am in the morning.
Then, once I was asleep, he asked me , and I saw it this morning, "Why aren't you responding? Are you talking to Ivy?"
I had my doll Ivy, sitting right there, I was brushing her hair.
I feel like such a liar, a fake friend, and oh my gosh.
I mean, people put all this trust in me, and yet I can't even prove I'm a good friend by telling them about this.
I mean, I'm lieing to MY BEST FRIENDS about like half of my life.
(ignore how much I feel like a wanna-be hannah montana right now)
Sorry, lame jokes I know.
But if you really knew what Bob was going through, how bad it is , and what he tells me, which is EVERYTHING.
you'd feel awful too.
I'm lieing about such a big part of my life to him, but I can't, i just CAN'T TELL THEM .
Oh my gosh, please guys, what do I do ? :( :(
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
ALOHA BLOG PEOPLE ;)
I LOVE blogging now, just saying.
So be prepared to be ATTACKED WITH LINKS.. ;)
Anyhow, let's cut to the point!
Hey everybody, it's Emma, more commonly known as AmericanGirls123 !
This is going to be the best way to keep up with me and what I am doing ! :)
Let's get to a couple updates !
First off, I am trying to get more into doing some videos after school if I can! Then the weekends can be more for JUST fun, no even youtube work really !
I have a couple up-coming videos to fill you in on ! :)
-AGMV, to a T-Swift song ! :)
-"In Wonderland" 2 part stop motion, up soon ! :)
-"CHANGE" part 3 ! (:
And those are all I am sure of at the moment ! (:
Alright, now for some news! First of all, I just recently got Kanani! :)
If you didn't know, I LOVE her and was inspired to do a how to series called "Everything American Girl" and it is a weekly - monthly, depending on what I need to do, video series, where I am going to do reviews and tutorials! I will have a moderator to do ideas on my channel soon!
The next is about photography! As you know, I have a flickr, which I love even more then youtube almost haha xD
And So, if you want to see that go on my youtube channel, AmericanGirls123, and get the link to my photo's! I am soon going to do an "Un-charted photography" video of tuns of random pics! :)
And onto that, I am trying to branch out of just AG pics! Yes, I love that still.
But I take my old camera with me everywhere I go now! :) it is fairly good and wouldn't be a huge deal if I lost it, unlike my new canon one :)
Thanks for reading everyone! I have to go to bed soon, so I can't write everything that I wanted to, but please check often for new posts!
-Emma
So be prepared to be ATTACKED WITH LINKS.. ;)
Anyhow, let's cut to the point!
Hey everybody, it's Emma, more commonly known as AmericanGirls123 !
This is going to be the best way to keep up with me and what I am doing ! :)
Let's get to a couple updates !
First off, I am trying to get more into doing some videos after school if I can! Then the weekends can be more for JUST fun, no even youtube work really !
I have a couple up-coming videos to fill you in on ! :)
-AGMV, to a T-Swift song ! :)
-"In Wonderland" 2 part stop motion, up soon ! :)
-"CHANGE" part 3 ! (:
And those are all I am sure of at the moment ! (:
Alright, now for some news! First of all, I just recently got Kanani! :)
If you didn't know, I LOVE her and was inspired to do a how to series called "Everything American Girl" and it is a weekly - monthly, depending on what I need to do, video series, where I am going to do reviews and tutorials! I will have a moderator to do ideas on my channel soon!
The next is about photography! As you know, I have a flickr, which I love even more then youtube almost haha xD
And So, if you want to see that go on my youtube channel, AmericanGirls123, and get the link to my photo's! I am soon going to do an "Un-charted photography" video of tuns of random pics! :)
And onto that, I am trying to branch out of just AG pics! Yes, I love that still.
But I take my old camera with me everywhere I go now! :) it is fairly good and wouldn't be a huge deal if I lost it, unlike my new canon one :)
Thanks for reading everyone! I have to go to bed soon, so I can't write everything that I wanted to, but please check often for new posts!
-Emma
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Let's all stop.
There's too much hate.
And I didn't mean for it to go that far, believe me I didn't.
But understand that it's out of my control now.
I've done EVERYTHING in my power to make it stop.
And if nobody else will, then I guess youtube isn't as amazing as it used to be.
If you can't deal with the fact that I'm sorry, then that's your problem.
Honestly , it is.
Can't we just move on, honestly.
Sure, people are going to argue "well we don't like you anymore so why would we?"
And, BECAUSE.
Because we are MATURE.
I thought you girls were better then that.
I guess not.
Anyhow, looks like I'm going to be home today, because I stayed up all night last night thinking about this and now my mom won't let me go to gymnastics.
But just honestly, I can't do anything else.
I tried being nice, I tried being honest and I down right just said PLEASE.
And if you can't accept that then I guess it's your problem.
DO YOU REMEMBER how HAPPY we all used to be!?
How if mileyrocks1586, MY BEST FRIEND IN REAL LIFE, wasn't kicked out, I wouldn't have said anything!?!
YOU GUYS SAY THAT IT'S MY FRIENDS BATTLE, AND I SHOULDN'T FIGHT IT.
When your all doing the same thing!?
The ONLY thing I was trying to do from the begining, is stand up for my real-life best friend!??
Sure, I apoligize!
I'm SORRY that in went that far and I'm SORRY that so much was mis-understood.
I'm SORRY that it turned people against each other and I'm SORRY you can't accept that.
But if all I was trying to do was stick up for my friend, what do you think is more important to me.
If I could give up youtube and all of this, if it meant for like example, if I didn't I could never talk to her again.
WHAT DO YOU THINK I'D DO ?
I'd delete my youtube in FIVE SECONDS if it meant staying friends with her.
That's one thing I'm NEVER going to apoligize for.
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