I feel awful. Please help :(

Okay, hey girls, it's Emma.
I feel like I can be honest with all of you, so I am going to be.
A girl , who could be reading this, is blackmailing me with my YouTube.
Basically, I told her about this when we were friends because I thought I could trust her.
Then she started telling people, a lot of people.
And it's driving me crazy.
I'm fake friends with this person just so that they won't tell anybody, and I feel awful for that reason.
I don't like this person, like they aren't really my friend and I know it .
But one wrong move and they tell somebody important to me.

Even worse then all that, here.
I have to explain this to you.
So, I was at my friends house with her and her brother, who are both my really good friends.
She is a year younger and her brother is the same age as me.
They are SO nice, and especially her brother, like, we tell each other everything.
But, then he started talking to the person, let's call her Kate.
Kate is the one who knows about my youtube and tells people.
She knew I was at my friends house, let's call my friend Julie and her brother Bob. <----- LOL@BOB.
No, but seriously.
Okay, so Kate started talking to us.
But it was really Bob on the computer.
So, Bob started to joke around, legit JUST JOKING, being funny.
And she assumed it was me , for some reason. I guess another chance to blackmail me.
She said something, oh my gosh, it's just all a blur.
But something about my doll, Ivy.
And so, they were like "who the heck is Ivy?"
And then kate says, "your american girl doll silly!"
But all that Bob and Julie saw was "girl" before I could snatch away the laptop and sign out.
THEN I made up this HUGGEEE Lie the Ivy, was a girl from Germany who was here 2 years ago, who Kate thought was weird but I liked, and so she makes fun of me for it.
They believed me, obviously, because like, they are my best friends and they can trust me.
And I feel HORRIBLE.
Bob especially, he is going through a really bad time right now.
And when I tried to explain all this to him like, without telling him, he just completly told me a bunch of stuff about him, and that he really likes me (FRIEND WISE PEOPLE...) for who I am, and like I'm the best friend he has EVER HAD..... and all that kind of stuff.
Like he went on saying that nothing I do is ever going to change that, and were best friends, and he trusts me with everything.
Then, I fell asleep, after like 2 hours of talking to him, at 1 am in the morning.
Then, once I was asleep, he asked me , and I saw it this morning, "Why aren't you responding? Are you talking to Ivy?"
I had my doll Ivy, sitting right there, I was brushing her hair.
I feel like such a liar, a fake friend, and oh my gosh.
I mean, people put all this trust in me, and yet I can't even prove I'm a good friend by telling them about this.
I mean, I'm lieing to MY BEST FRIENDS about like half of my life.
(ignore how much I feel like a wanna-be hannah montana right now)
Sorry, lame jokes I know.
But if you really knew what Bob was going through, how bad it is , and what he tells me, which is EVERYTHING.
you'd feel awful too.
I'm lieing about such a big part of my life to him, but I can't, i just CAN'T TELL THEM .
Oh my gosh, please guys, what do I do ? :( :(

ALOHA BLOG PEOPLE ;)

I LOVE blogging now, just saying.
So be prepared to be ATTACKED WITH LINKS.. ;)
Anyhow, let's cut to the point!
Hey everybody, it's Emma, more commonly known as AmericanGirls123 !
This is going to be the best way to keep up with me and what I am doing ! :)
Let's get to a couple updates !
First off, I am trying to get more into doing some videos after school if I can! Then the weekends can be more for JUST fun, no even youtube work really !
I have a couple up-coming videos to fill you in on ! :)
-AGMV, to a T-Swift song ! :)
-"In Wonderland" 2 part stop motion, up soon ! :)
-"CHANGE" part 3 ! (:
And those are all I am sure of at the moment ! (:

Alright, now for some news! First of all, I just recently got Kanani! :)
If you didn't know, I LOVE her and was inspired to do a how to series called "Everything American Girl" and it is a weekly - monthly, depending on what I need to do, video series, where I am going to do reviews and tutorials! I will have a moderator to do ideas on my channel soon!

The next is about photography! As you know, I have a flickr, which I love even more then youtube almost haha xD
And So, if you want to see that go on my youtube channel, AmericanGirls123, and get the link to my photo's! I am soon going to do an "Un-charted photography" video of tuns of random pics! :)
And onto that, I am trying to branch out of just AG pics! Yes, I love that still.
But I take my old camera with me everywhere I go now! :) it is fairly good and wouldn't be a huge deal if I lost it, unlike my new canon one :)
Thanks for reading everyone! I have to go to bed soon, so I can't write everything that I wanted to, but please check often for new posts!
-Emma

Let's all stop.

There's too much hate.

And I didn't mean for it to go that far, believe me I didn't.

But understand that it's out of my control now.

I've done EVERYTHING in my power to make it stop.

And if nobody else will, then I guess youtube isn't as amazing as it used to be.

If you can't deal with the fact that I'm sorry, then that's your problem.

Honestly , it is.

Can't we just move on, honestly.

Sure, people are going to argue "well we don't like you anymore so why would we?"

And, BECAUSE.

Because we are MATURE.

I thought you girls were better then that.

I guess not.

Anyhow, looks like I'm going to be home today, because I stayed up all night last night thinking about this and now my mom won't let me go to gymnastics.

But just honestly, I can't do anything else.

I tried being nice, I tried being honest and I down right just said PLEASE.

And if you can't accept that then I guess it's your problem.

DO YOU REMEMBER how HAPPY we all used to be!?

How if mileyrocks1586, MY BEST FRIEND IN REAL LIFE, wasn't kicked out, I wouldn't have said anything!?!

YOU GUYS SAY THAT IT'S MY FRIENDS BATTLE, AND I SHOULDN'T FIGHT IT.

When your all doing the same thing!?

The ONLY thing I was trying to do from the begining, is stand up for my real-life best friend!??

Sure, I apoligize!

I'm SORRY that in went that far and I'm SORRY that so much was mis-understood.

I'm SORRY that it turned people against each other and I'm SORRY you can't accept that.

But if all I was trying to do was stick up for my friend, what do you think is more important to me.

If I could give up youtube and all of this, if it meant for like example, if I didn't I could never talk to her again.

WHAT DO YOU THINK I'D DO ?

I'd delete my youtube in FIVE SECONDS if it meant staying friends with her.

That's one thing I'm NEVER going to apoligize for.